Sunday, 29 April 2007

Uplifted!

The movers came in Friday and all our stuff is gone. All that is left is the furniture that is staying with the apartment, junk to give away and things that must fit in our 2 suitcases. Its actually very liberating to be living really light. Today I sold our cot - it was a little sad - as I brought both my babies home from hospital and the first thing we did was pop them into that cot asleep. And, ok, they may not have slept in it very long - both of them moved mostly into our bed at about 9 months old - but I still feel a bit sentimental about getting rid of such a major piece of babyhood. The most important thing to do now is to get the apartment listed for rent. Now that all the boxes are gone, it looks a bit tidier and its time to get on with the search for a tenant.

Wednesday, 25 April 2007

I'm 40!

When I turned 30, 40 seemed practically ancient. Now it seems, well, a lot like 39 in fact! I haven't felt the slightest bit down about leaving my 30s. Maybe its because I've got so much else on my plate with the move - all our stuff gets uplifted on Friday. But also my life at 40 is just how I would have wished it to be. I'm so much happier than I was at 30, thanks to having left my law career well behind me. I've still got my best friend to share my life with. And our dreams of having a family have been fulfilled. When we were in the midst of our pregnancy losses in our mid 30s, I wondered how life would be at 40 and whether I would be destined to spent the last of my fertile years repeating that terrrible cycle of getting pregnant only to lose the babies. Now, it seems so long ago that its almost like it happened to someone else...almost. Still, life is good; a huge change is just around the corner. So, I'm 40...so what?

Friday, 20 April 2007

Sold!


David has sold our car. We said goodbye to our little black VW beetle. Now, I'm not really a car person and I will happily take the train or bus instead, especially with a baby who hates anything more than a 10 minute drive (unless he is asleep!), but I will miss our little car. I still vividly remember bringing both our kids home from the hospital in that car, over the Story Bridge and into the Valley. And, to the amazement of many who couldn't fathom having two kids in a two door car, we loved it and were very comfortable with it. Still, this new direction we are taking in life is about moving away from some of the luxuries we've got used to, making some changes and taking some chances. So this change today is the first of many.

Monday, 16 April 2007

Happy Birthday Little Man

I cant believe my baby boy is one already. What a surreal day it was, a year ago, when he was born five weeks earlier than we expected. I will never forget how heart breaking it was to leave him in the Special Care Nursery and have to go home without him each night after I was discharged. He stayed in for two weeks and it was such a wonderful day when we all brought him home together. We've had our share of ups and downs this year, with him being hospitalized again at 5 months with RSV. I felt like things were just calming down after that when we found out about his hips. I wonder what he has in store for me next!

Tuesday, 3 April 2007

Good news

Jasper's brace has come off for good! The surgeon said his xrays show the hip is looking really good, almost normal. Of course, we need it to keep developing well but for now the placement is good. So no more brace! It was nice to finally see those chunky little thighs again and be able to give him a real cuddle with no hard bits. We will have to find ourselves a good pediatric orthopaedic surgeon once we get to Annecy but he doesnt need to be checked again for 6-8 months so that gives us plenty of time. For now, I'm just going to enjoy watching him learn to walk.

Sunday, 1 April 2007

Nervous

Jasper's next hip appointment is on Tuesday and the anxiety is starting to kick in. First he has two x-rays (which he hates) - one with the brace on and one with it off. Then we go see the orthopaedic surgeon. There is a chance that we may be done with the brace there and then as the surgeon originally said it was for 6 weeks. However, at our last appointment it was more like, at least 6 weeks. I'm not at all worried about having to keep the brace on longer. Its no problem to take care of him in it and he is making such progress despite it. He can stand up (although he's not quite straight upright), he can cruise (swinging his legs around like a cowboy!), he can sit up in it and today he even climbed 3 stairs!

No, what worries me is that something may have gone wrong and we need another operation straight away. How would that work with our move? Could we get him in in the next 6 weeks? And would he even be allowed to fly in a cast? And then, how soon could we find a specialist once we get to France? I really must just take it day by day and not expect the worst - its just that way I get less disappointed if it happens!